Thaw...

the air touching my skin was noticeably warmer this week

and today is the First of March

and people are beginning to talk about Daylight Savings Time

and there's that familiar excitement in my chest again

the Spring butterflies returning to my stomach

every time I smell the electric ozone scent of

growth

energy

power

life

carried in the warm, wet breeze blowing from the west

it's the chill down my spine

and the recurring gooseflesh

anxiously awaiting all the unknown

possibilities

opportunities

drifting in on the wind

every day it seems the Sun changes color a little more

shading from the hazy white-blue hue of Winter

toward the bright hot yellow-orange fireball of Summer

and I swear I can taste that color shift with my skin

licking it up

cat bath of photons

drinking it down

sunlight pouring straight into me as

endorphin

serotonin

dopamine

adrenaline

altering my basic chemical makeup

transforming

regrowing

my Self

coming back to life

waking the fuck up

waking the world up

I can feel it

I know it's time to move again

time to run again

time to drift again

time to dance again

time to fuck again

time to kiss again 

time to drink again

time to feel again

feel these things again

feel awake and excited and anxious and nervous and alive again

I can feel all of it beginning right now

with every new sensation when I step outside

I feel the familiar twitch of that little seed growing in the center of me

stronger each day

getting ready to burst